Evolution of a Man

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Progress on my health goals.

“I don’t know how people live without coffee, I really don’t” – Martha Quinn

The goal that I thought might have been harder than it was, was in giving up coffee.  I haven’t had a cup of coffee (or even a sip) since September 11th.  I really thought I was going to have some psychological issues with removing coffee from my routine, but I have found that it doesn’t bother me.  It does affect me in some ways though.

I’ve found that I have to sleep earlier, and I pay dearly if I skip this to watch a show or stay up and write or read.  DEARLY.  The next day I drag, but I sort of like the idea that this is a natural reaction, that my body is telling me  ‘hey fucker you didn’t sleep enough last night, enjoy your bag of shit day today’.  This sort of ‘body neutral’ feeling is alright.

I’ve also been taking twice daily supplements of Fish Oil and an organic multivitamin, sourced from fruits and vegetables.

I take Rainbow Light Certified Organic Men’s Multivitamin, twice daily.  It’s got a really wide base of vitamins, and is particularly strong in B vitamins (which help provide me with natural energy).  It also has pro-biotics, helping to keep my internal fauna kicking ass.

I’ve been taking Fisol fish oil supplements, and these are for brain activity.  keeps me sharp, and these don’t digest until in the intestines, so no fishy burps (which is key).

I’ve also been drinking Amazing Grass’s Green Superfood.  It’s a green, grassy tasting powder mix that I stir into some water.  Sounds gross, but it’s got a ton of stuff in it, and if you’re even slightly averse to eating vegetables, this helps out big time.  Here are some benefits:

•  Helps you achieve your recommended 5 to 9 daily servings of fruits and vegetables
•  Naturally detoxifies and boosts your immune system
•  Probiotics and Enzymes to aid digestion and absorption
•  Complete raw food with powerful antioxidants
•  Alkaline green plant foods balance acidic pH levels
•  Contains over 70% organic ingredients
•  More organic whole leaf greens per gram than other green superfoods – not from juice
•  Featuring Sambazon organic pure açai powder
•  No soy lecithin fillers
•  Nitrogen packed for freshness

My favorite side effect is being nicer.  I’m less crabby.  I listen more before reacting, especially with my wife.

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Week 6!

“There is a beast in man that needs to be exercised, not exorcised”– Anton Lavey

The afternoon run of the 3rd of November was my 22nd training run, the last run of the 6th week!  (Week 6: Oct. 27th-Nov. 3rd)

22 runs in, 6 weeks down, 19 weeks to go and I’ll be running the Saturday Rock N’ Roll Marathon in Washington, DC.

Week 6 Statistics!

Average Run

  • 30:09.67 minutes

Average Pace

  • 8:37 /mile

Average Distance

  • 3.49 miles

Notable week 6 achievements:

  • I’m not going to lie, this week sucked.  Monday, Hurricane Sandy bearing down on poor little Virginia, we decided to run indoors at our community gym.  We pay for it every month, why not, right?  UGH.  Running indoors used to be something I liked, but this time it was terrible.  Not only was it boring, but I kept watching the seconds tick by on the machine, which made the 30 minutes seem like forever.  Also, running outdoors is naturally paced by landmarks.  Next is the golf course.  Once past the golf course, I’m thinking of the cul-de-sac next.  After the cul-de-sac, it’s the hill, the top of the hill, the bottom of the hill, etc.  You get none of that on the treadmill, and on top of it all, you don’t get the fresh air.  BLAH.
  • I was sick on Thursday.  Sick is relative I suppose.  I don’t think I would have been as sick on Thursday if I had gone to bed a little earlier than I did, but I also did wake up with a headache and sniffles.  Built in excuse, and I should have ran anyway..maybe it would have been good for me.  I feel guilty to have skipped the run, to be honest.
  • On the plus side, the run on Saturday afternoon was great.  The temperature was about 50F, but the windchill pulled that down much further.  It was chilly to start, but after the first 4 minutes or so, I was toasty warm and heated up, and the chilled air felt GREAT in the lungs.  I wasn’t winded in the least at the end, and really enjoyed getting out there.

“Happiness is not something ready made, it comes from your actions” – Dalai Lama

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Week 5…Done

“Running is the greatest metaphor for life, because you get out of it what you put into it”– Oprah Winfrey

The afternoon run of the 27th of October was my 19th training run, the last run of the fifth week!  (Week 5: Oct. 21th-Oct. 27th)

19 runs in, 5 weeks down, 20 weeks to go and I’ll be running the Saturday Rock N’ Roll Marathon in Washington, DC.

Week 5 Statistics!

Average Run

  • 30:01.00 minutes

Average Pace

  • 8:18 /mile

Average Distance

  • 3.61 miles

Notable week 5 achievements:

  • This week was run by myself – and two of the runs I took a different route.  Instead of going the hilly route down by Trump National golf course, I instead went out to Algonkian parkway, and just ran to see how far 15 minutes out took me.  Without the hills, my pace was considerably improved (almost breaking below 8min/mile).  As a friend reminded me though, i’m training for the long run, not the short sprint.

Each man’s life represents a road toward himself. – Herman Hesse

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It seems strange to me that at 37 I’m still learning about who I am. Things that I never would have dug up had I not been looking; monumental things.  Things that drive me, things that shape how I behave.

I’m insecure.

I’ve got a deep seated fear of rejection.

I have no problem getting close to somebody, but only so far.

In my life, I have been blessed with not just a woman, not just a wife in name alone, but a partner.  Someone who believes, who has glimpsed the person I can be (who I want to be).  Someone willing and able to ride out the rough with me.  A partner, a friend, a lover.  My wife.

So happy to wake up next to her, a different, deeper man every day.

This little journey of mine, even though it’s not so old, is already unlocking boxes in my mind that have been sealed since they were made.  I’m redoing the foundations of this old house, so that it will last forever.

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Week 4 is DONE!

“If you ever get a second chance in life for something, you’ve got to go all the way.” – Lance Armstrong

The morning of the 20th was my 15th training run, the last run of the fourth week!  (Week 4: Oct. 14th-Oct. 20th)

15 runs in, two weeks down, 21 weeks to go and I’ll be running the Saturday Rock N’ Roll Marathon in Washington, DC.

Week 4 Statistics!

Average Run

  • 30:50.20 minutes

Average Pace

  • 8:54.78/mile

Average Distance

  • 3.46 miles

Notable week 3 achievements:

  • Insomnia is a bitch.  For some reason, Sunday night at the beginning of the week, I could not turn my brain off.  This is usually associated with too much caffeine, but recent events make that false.  Whatever the case, at 4:45 am I’m still awake and decide there is no way I’m running at 6.  So this week, is one week down a training run.  My first miss.  F!

Sleep comes more easily than it returns.  -Victor Hugo

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Searching for a Publisher

In writing a children’s book, one of my goals in that process is to be published.  I plan on having a physical book available, as well as having e-books, and an Ipad version for sale.  In order to reach this goal, I’ve had to search for a publisher – and see what is out there, and how it works.

I found a self-publisher, who seems very good.  Their name is Trafford Publishing.  They seem pretty great, and here’s some of the highlights of the process, as I know it:

  1. I can come to them at any stage in my process, early on, mid way, book finished, and they have different packages available to suit my needs for where I’m at in the process.  Bonus.
  2. They do marketing for you; on websites where books are sold, physical advertising in bookstores around the country, and can target local markets of your choosing.  All completely customizable.
  3. They can do all formats of books; ebooks, regular books, and Ipad versions.  Just like I was hoping.
  4. I retain 100% of the copy rights, and they help me to copyright my material.  I can walk with my book at any time, and can even bring it to a larger publisher should one have interest.  Complete control.
  5. I get royalties on each sale.  20% on physical copies sold, 50% on e-versions sold under the Trafford label.

All of these are good to know.  Even better to know is the timeline:  If I want my book to be on the shelves for this time next year, they need 3-4 months of front end time before publishing.  That means I need to have it substantially completed by July, 2013.

Let the fun begin.

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Thoughts about direction

One of my life goals is school.

I was always told ‘Greg would do so much better if he just applied himself’, or ‘if Greg just slowed down and took the time on his studies, he’d be an A student’.  I heard that mantra my whole life, and besides knowing it to be true, I allowed it to be my reality – even though the truth of it is, most of my grades hovered just over 50%.  Whatever was the minimum effort needed to still get the diploma was what I put into it.  I was only an A student in potential.

This time around, I want to be an A student in reality.  A grade doesn’t define you, but for me – not having the grade before DID define me.  It shaped my view on life; to get by on as little effort as possible.  Why work hard when you don’t have to?  Why bust your ass on schoolwork, when you could skip it, play games instead, and STILL pass?  I have to admit, before I started university, I never (not once) ever studied for a test.  I didn’t do homework.  I skipped all projects.  I was at the mortal limit of skipping classes (one term, if I missed one more day, I was going to get the boot, straight from the principals mouth).

This time around, I want it to be different.  I am studying hard.  I am putting in the work to master the material (it’s not that hard to master the material; I read the chapter and do the homework – but still, I’m doing what is required).  I am an A student right now, after 2.5 years in, and am proud of my achievement.  Not just because it’s an A, a shiny badge for my transcript, but because of what it represents – the effort.  The dedication.  The fact that I put time INTO them, into my life, instead of life just happening.  I’ve done good work, and I’m happy with the results so far.